hey hey mr peh... i know you can get your own lyrics online, but i just wanna share these songs with everyone. "gone too soon" just started playing in my mind as we were doing the seniors' day video for the graduating seniors. kinda felt appropriate cos sometimes it seems that the most precious things are often the most fleeting. like my one year (or rather, 8 months) here in michigan. hated it at the start; did not feel comfortable at all. but 8 months is gone now, and its time to look forward to going back to old lives, old places, familar faces, and old friends. so many happy memories here; of course i know i'll be back here, but the feeling is disconcertingly familiar.

by the way, if you guys haven't read the john donne poem that i posted, you really should. its so beautiful. came to know about it when i did literature in jc. and yes, i love the compass imagery. somehow, it seems so apt: two people madly in love with each other, one arching and aching for the other's return, and the other, who left to explore the world, lives a life centered on the loved one in the middle. so far apart, yet both know they'll come back to each other eventually.

ai qing kui lei, the eric moo song, was a favorite song of mine back in cat high. my council president, liu hanping, and myself hummed it all day long. i think the "wo zhen de hao lei" part was the most applicable to us. we slogged much for the council then, but even though rewards were little, we both loved the job too much to walk away from it. even though i've lost touch with him, i really treasured the bond we had, working for the same ideals together.

feeling so... tumultumous ( is that how u spell it??) these days. so many highs and lows experienced. did pretty alright for my philo mid-term (high), sun was out all week so i did not spend a single afternoon indoors (very high), and had lots of fun staying over at the dude last night helping out with seniors' day stuff (extremely high), but the lows are numerous too; found out that i may be going back only on the 3rd of may (low), feeling extremely jaded about college scope and umssa stuff (very low), and finding myself totally clueless about what other people think of me, and what i'm supposed to do (extremely low). like i said, good things often are gone too soon.

so that's how i'm going to end this post: on a low. hmm i know sometimes i crap alot and talk lots of nonsense. and yea i love making peopl crack up with my jokes. but maybe that isn't all that is about me. maybe i have feelings too? people always only what to read about what's funny, but it is too much a dose of reality to read about how other people really feel. yep so i shall stop right here and prevent too much reality from seeping into our lives.