Sat, April 30th, 12:56 am

i will not be blackmailed!

sometimes people who know your darkest secrets will return to haunt you. you know, embarassing moments that you'd never want to be exposed? yes, somehow, your friends will know of them, and it turns up as a conversation topic at the worst possible times. i feel that at times friends are your worst enemies; i think they genuinely derive pleasure from your agony of embarassment, telling the whole world what you'd really want to be buried ten feet into the ground.

remember my crap in the pants incident i posted the last time? yea, i'm really glad none of my friends knew it then. or i might not be the guy i am now. i might have just ended up in woodbridge wrecked by the shame of, well, crapping my pants in school. no kidding.

which brings me to the point proper: no, i will not be blackmailed. i will not be forced to do something against my wishes just because u know something that i think shouldn't be told to the world. i think its better to tell the world myself then to face such uninvited agony. haa so here goes:

yes, i was a childhood michael jackson fan. yes, laugh all u want, you ignorant fools. i thought (and still think) his early music is pretty great, but the man/woman that he is now is sickly. anywayz, yes i've admitted to the one thing that has been a source of embarassment. let the world know now, and perhaps i shall cease to be teased.

it was the december holidays in 1995. i was in sec 1 then. (to all you then-pri 4 kids, boo hooo!) i remember that we had a pri-6 class outing. if you guys knew me back when i was in pri sch, i gotta tell you, i was HOT. ha. girls loved me (ok i don't what happened, so don't ask me for explanation for my current boohoo state). so there i was, young, pimply and innocent, trying all out to impressed my former classmates after a year in catholic high (best green shorts around town). cracking jokes, flirting with the girls, man was i on form. but then the tragic happened. the ego-deflator. the libido killer. the shame factor. i was running around like a madman and promptly crashed into a lamp post. yes, a lamp post. i was too busy trying to look suave after the crash and failed to notice the blood trickling down my forehead. when someone finally told me, i flipped out. became a sobbing, crying wreck. had to go get stiches on the head. all 4 of them. you can probably see the scar on my head now if u noticed. i was taught a good lesson not to act cool in front of girls. doesn't pay at all (hey mark u listening?). hah.

when i was in sec 3, i was in class 3s5 of catholic high. i had a bunch of madmen for classmates. in fact, i had madmen for classmates in 2s3, 3s5 and 4s5. seemed almost like someone up there was playing a cruel trick on me. because here's what they do for fun: they'll do something awful to me. like lock me up in the cupboard. pinch my nipples blue black ('whistle' anyone?). chase me around the school. give me a big fat wedgie. 3 times. a day. drag my ass around the classroom, turning my white shirt black. hey hey guys if you're reading this, i forgive you. i know i was nice and popular and you showed your affection in a really strange way, but hah its ok. its my dark hidden past that none of my jc mates knew.

i've got so many more embarassing stuff to confess to, but since i predict i'd take forever to type it out, i shall talk about the latest two that happened to me, just in case gena, samuel or esther blackmaisl me again.

first up, my unfortunate accident with esther. we were all in south quad happily eating lunch. the sun was up, you know. pretty good weather. sunny. everyone was in the sun dresses and all. flip flops. the works. i was sitting opposite esther. then qionghui commented to esther, "hey nice skirt." and i began to bend down to look. but before i actually did, esther screamed and i immediately realised i just landed in a really embarassing situation. if you don't get why this is embarassing, then it's probably good that you don't.

next accident just happened to me a while ago. was getting out of the car along north university ave. kianleong just sent samuel, gena and myself back from the storage place. was talking to them when i crashed into a sign board along the road. it was appropriate too: "road works ahead". i'm so glad no one saw what happened (at least i think so), but it was awfully embarassing.

ok, shall post more in the future. gotta ZZzzz.