Wednesday, 1:30am, April 20

remember the pysch exam that i mentioned in the other post? i totally blew it!! #$%^&^%^&^%$%^ so no more A for me i guess..... =(

incidentally, have a funny story to tell. was entering the south quad dinning hall today, and hongye was telling me about how awful her exam went. so i said "well, its not like you'd fail the exam or something." and she said "i know i won't fail, but no A means failing the course mah". you should have seen the look on the counter girl's face when hongye said that. it was a very interesting mix of anger, increduility, shock and amusement. i could sense the aura of death, otherwise known as 杀气, in the air, and scurried away as soon as possible. what was hongye doing, trying to get us all killed??? she should know that such pertulance and arrogance is simply not permitted here. tsktsk...

was asking pearl and esther just now whether i should shave my head again before returning to singapore. just like what i did for the winter break.

(photo was removed because of unsavory comments... heh)

Well, they were like, "since when do you care for female comments on how you look? are you trying to be like hum-sup (a.k.a. mark lim)??" well i was like, i don't really care for how i see myself, but rather how others see me, because more people take on the latter perspective than my own perspective, and you should always go with the flow right? see i am so applying the stuff i'm learning from my philosophy class right now!

had a sense of deja-vous just a few minutes ago. re-lived the experience of having a girl that i was dating a while ago tell me that she's attached to another guy. (yes GCB ppl, G***ie is the other one). hmmm feeling pretty... ambivalent about it? i mean, yea i once had the hots for the girl, but after not dating for a while and saying that you'd be friends and all, i do feel a bit strange that she's with another friend already. not that i did not expect it of course. it's just something that i've constantly tried to ignore while we dated.o well, all the best to you two!!

hmmm... i dunno if you know, but mingcheng recently took a photo of him kssing me. in my defence, i was unconscious, taking a nap after reading the boring boring southeast asian politics readings. i mean, not that i'm not grateful or anything, seeing that i attract the opposite sex and all, but hey, like jack nicholson said in "as good as it gets", i'll be the luckiest guy in the world if that did it for me. which of course doesn't do it for me. (see i gotta make myself clear on that joke because many people suffer from selective reading, not to mention selective hearing)

been receiving a lot of consolation prizes lately. you know how it is that they give out consolation prizes at competitions? like the ocs sword of participation, the 4-D consolation prizes, etc? i wonder, what are people really thinking of when they give out consolation prizes? what did the first person in the world who gave out the first consolation prize think? what was going on in his head? did he go like "hey, i only have one prize, but there's so many fucking idiots out there who want this, but they all cannot make it, so i gotta invent such prizes to give to these bloody losers?" or was it "hey i appreciate good efforts shown anytime, so i'd encourage these bloody fucking losers by giving them some incentives to improve themselves?" well, for the good of humanity, i sure hope its not the latter. cos it encourages people to think that they really aren't all that bad themselves, that if they try a little more they might actually make it, that there's a place for them in this world even though they din win the big prize. boo-fucking-whoo. if you're a loser, and cannot make it, then don't even try to attempt to get near the vicinity of winning the top prize. cos it ain't going to happen! now i wish somebody had the decency to tell me these before.

gotta go continue studying... and hopefully not get consolation prize anymore. adios!