what a year it has been

happy chinese new year! sitting here on my couch the morning after. CNY has got to be my fave day in this academic year here... the warm feeling of seeing a hundred over people coming together for dinner, the photo taking sessions after, and the crooners performing their best renditions during the ktv session. but much more than that, i'm just always impressed by the enthusiasm that the freshmen show when it comes to putting on an excellent show for the rest of the singaporeans. that was the same with the previous CNY, where the people from my batch stepped up and did an excellent CNY. Ditto for this year, which is all the more surprising, considering most of us did not really think that they would exhibit such enthusiasm. i am glad to say that i'm wrong, and i hope that this work ethic would not wane in the months to come.

liheng has been calling me "angst-ridden" recently. i wonder what made him feel that way. do i really come across as this? i am only writing my true feelings here, nothing more. i guess it's just a lot easier to write your emotions here than to wear them on your face; i mean, only people who really care would read of these things here, while everyone around would see my emotions should i choose to display that liberally. perhaps i really am angst-ridden, and should really thank heng for pointing that out to me.

i'm really glad that i did my individual toasts with the people who are special to me yesterday. that includes the new and old SSA Committee members, as well as the CNY planning committee, who i've had so much pleasure working together with. i just wanted to show them how much i really appreciated working and learning from them.

though not the last SSA event that i would be involved in planning in (that would be the mid-western games), CNY has always been held a special place in my heart, mainly because it was the first event that i had done (together with Karl, from whom i learnt so much). it was my first time feeling really glad that i had contributed to the community here. some ppl say that's very juvenile, this whole organizing event thingy that SSA does; others even dismiss it with nonchalance and want no part at all; me? i'll just miss this, giving back to a community that i am really glad to be in. as long as the people around me are happy, as long as the Singaporean community is tight and harmonious, i'd gladly ignore all critics. they just don't understand the feeling one gets when one is surrounded by friends they appreciate.

on a side note, i think the late nights are taking their toil on me... not feeling especially chirpy this morning, and my throat positively hurts. guess i'll take the day to recuperate.